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Joe's Progress
Ah, I see, the rabbit hole has another level. Why am I not surprised? I wonder if there is insider meaning to his initials MWM, such as "as above so below" or some such "shite".
A special rabbit hole for us conspiracy readers, to keep us pasted to our screens... Controlled opposition...
I felt that the recent article someone posted which was "supplied by another writer for Mile's site" seemed to be written in exactly the same sort of prose as all the other essays. I was writing it off as too much MM editing prior to publication...
My guess about satanism is that it is used the exact same way all religions are, to control.
And it obviously does exist, as much as any other religion exists. There are statues and groups and people who admit they are satanists.
I suppose it is, in a way, just another example of controlled opposition. A way to control those who hate the current religions.
Then there are the benefits to enticing people to do horrible things (telling them how it will give power to do the disgraceful things), getting it all on tape, and then you own them and now they are your puppets.
Quote from Joseph on November 2, 2025, 7:09 pm@Hermes
I would test if it's not just getting away from electrical fields which is improving your sleep when you go to the barn. I personally used to turn the breakers off in my house every night for health reasons (I was big into Robert Becker's work at the time). I only stopped when I discovered it was doing bad things to my circuit breaker.
If that were so, my life would be much easier. I've lived in a house where I switched off the circuit breaker at night. Sleeping in a barn doesn't compare. It slows you down. And I just sleep much longer hours, 12 hours regularly. It's really not practical to sleep this long. But what can I do? My body is steering this boat. My head just tries to keep up, begrudgingly following along.
@ Ginny
I bookmarked the doohickey. The electricity in my 100 year old house was dirty from the start, and the smart meter the power company put in while I was at work didn't help.
@ Joe2 Some of my breakers got fried over time, and when an electrician friend saw it and heard about what I used to do, he told me that cutting power at the panel is hard on breakers and probably caused it. I'm saving that Dave McGowan link, but probably taking a break from that subject tonight. I overdosed on it when I watched Hostel 2 on one night, and then a french film called Martyrs on the second. Brutal films where they tip their hand, so to speak.
@Hermes I would cherish that sleep. I have an older friend and my stepfather who both suffer insomnia, which is just one effect of too much A. I'm like you now in that if my alarm didn't summon me I would sleep 10 hours every night.
@ lil chick Mainstream satanism is all about self actualization, which is the title of Leo Gura's web site, and is additionally the whole modern ethos of self esteem and development. Modern satanists worship themselves. Reading up on satanism has caused me to reflect on whether I'm not guilty of this to some extent. Being so concerned with diet (health of the body). There's value in humbling ourselves before a higher power which is neither government nor guru, and providing service to others.
Reflecting on it, based on what I do with my time, it appears that I value the life of the mind; learning and thinking thoughts, above physical action or worldly fulfillment. I think it shows - I see guys my age and they are more physical and present in almost every way. Arms the size of legs, lots of activities every day and plenty of meat on the hoof. At 6'2" I've finally exceeded 150 lbs so this diet is bringing me a bit back into focus. At the start of my transition into low A I went as low as 130 lbs.
As far as the topic of this thread, my progress, the foamy urine I was noticing the past week has been, like many of my other symptoms, another "here there and gone tomorrow". I was reading up on this, and according to the mainstream, retinoid metabolites are excreted more via urine than faeces, a 60/40 split:
Typically, the majority of vitamin A metabolites are excreted in the urine. Sauberlich et al. (1974) reported that the percentage of a radioactive dose of vitamin A recovered in breath, feces, and urine ranged from 18 to 30 percent, 18 to 37 percent, and 38 to 60 percent, respectively, after 400 days on a vitamin A-deficient diet. Almost all of the excreted metabolites are biologically inactive.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK222318/
I'm not sure if beans change this ratio at all (I suspect that they do).
I've settled into eating one lb of beef a day, and double that in beans and rice, as well as 1-2 servings of whole oat porridge with maple syrup. If I'm capable of becoming overweight, the next month or two will make it reality. My sleep (and digestion) has been the best I can recall ever having. Plenty of dreams; I get up once to take a leak and then returning to bed I solve the worlds problems. Dreams where I don't walk but instead glide/fly from place to place, taking care of business.
good to hear. Good on you.
I have thoroughly enjoyed this thread, your writing, your quotes and a lot of what you've referenced. I've spent my life seeing through the lies and rhetoric, even early on in childhood so have made myself a bit of a loner that spends a lot of time in nature, reading books and listening to music. I share very much in your sentiment about Garrett, I find that man repulsive and cannot understand how people are drawn to him, but that's pretty much how I've felt my entire life about most things (how the hell are people ok with this? rings through my mind A LOT).
I found it funny that you read through all 551 pages of the Low A thread on the low toxin forum. I was a long time follower of the work of Ray Peat and that forum, not necessarily because I believe 100% in Ray's work, but because it was a place where I could feel like I had some common ground with people because at least they were not subscribing to the mainstream dogma. Once the plannedemic hit, wow...did that change! It's crazy how the energy of the psyop even came through on a forum where you'd think people would be rejecting it. At least the message shifted to a lower vit A diet, but it's more of the same. Supplements and literally the "Holy Grail" of health being espoused. This thread here has been a breath of fresh air! All contributors have such interesting links/topics, and nice things to say.
I live my day to day life and don't have any people that I can share these kinds of topics and conversations with, so it's been nice reading this! I'm so glad you are feeling betting and it's so nice to read your progress in detail. Here's to hoping you continue to have health breakthroughs that you didn't even know were possible.
How are your dogs doing? Hoping the one with the tumor is faring well. It's truly disgusting the level of poisoning we have to be aware of. I fed my prior dog mostly human leftovers and homemade slop, and he lived until he was 16. The current dog I have I started him off on commercial food (that was supposed to be human-grade) and the health issues he had were immense. I'm assuming there were supplements in the food that were not indicated on the label, because as soon as I put him on ground beef and bone meal, he's like a new dog! I believe at one point I did find a commercial dog food that did NOT have Vitamin A included. If you'd like me to try and track that down, I'm sure I saved the link somewhere.
"BTW, I think a lot of what gets us improvements is activity. Grant's bike and weights. My shovels and pitchforks. Your woodpile. There is a commonality here. Looking forward to tomorrow. Drop off the mower with a story and then pickup few yards of mulch to spread in the afternoon. Keep moving."
I totally agree with what you're saying here. I've worked in sports/fitness and healthcare most of my career and what a certain level of activity and fitness can do to protect oneself from the poisoning is pretty evident! Those that are consistent about moving their body and especially manual labor performed outside, there's a vastly different level of underlying health.
@Rock Climber
I'm with you on not having anyone to have real conversations with. My poker buddies discussions are limited to politics and movies/shows that they watch. I much prefer conversations with my boss which have to do with the much loftier subject of animals and their breeding/care.
He had both of the dogs with tumors put down a few months ago. Said operating was useless as the tumors would just return. If I ever had a dog again he would get brown rice and chicken and leftovers. I don't think it will happen though. The fleas around here make life a war without end.
I looked up a video of Alan Watt last night - he was a man whose voice gave me solace for most of my adult life - and I realized that I hadn't listened to him since he died in the middle of covid, so four years ago, now. Here it is: Alan Watt on Alex Jones Infowars Complete Oct-2010 Interview
I say he died but I actually have my doubts - it was on 04/03/21.. nevertheless listening to him gave me the same comfort that it always did.
After discussing Miles Mathis as a limited hangout, I instantly found another limited hangout with even more appeal to a perennial seeker such as myself, willhelp.me. Another Brit with endless content dropping bombs of truth left right and center. And a very curious thing in his work seems (to me) to be a contingency tied to Miles identification of aces and eights as a calling card - according to willhelp, 81% are asleep, 8% are seeking, and 11% are in herd management.. How he would have come upon those particular numbers isn't explained.. It doesn't seem that his content has gained enough traction for these limited hangouts to do battle with one another yet, however. I think his videos on youtube get about 30 views.. Even knowing he's paid to mislead me it's difficult not to be misled. The loneliness you speak of is real for all seekers in all times.
Alan was/is special to me because he is telling the seeker to read the source material, the books where our "betters" boasted of their plans for humanity. There isn't any room for spin, conjecture or fantasy there.
On the topic of that monster low a thread on the low toxin forum, I saved a few quotes when I was about halfway through it. stargazer was in med school and planning a thesis on low a for dementia/alzheimer's at one point, then later in the thread he abruptly recanted the whole idea. He wasn't the only one, either. Several posters flipped sides on the subject over the course of a few years.
Tarmander said:
I am curious about something. In your initial story you said you had extreme brain fog and memory issues AFTER you got off vitamin A for a few months. Did I read that right? While you were on vitamin A you were doing fine but then when you went low vitamin A you had this initial memory problem which resolved itself after a few months?stargazer1111
Not exactly. I noticed the memory problems one day when I was out to dinner and I would look at the sign of the restaurant on the building, look away, and couldn't remember what the sign said. I did this several times and couldn't remember after each look at the sign. This was after several weeks of taking 100,000 IU per day. I took this dose after having read Haidut's posts citing research on the safety of doses below 300,000 IU per day. I regret this as a lot of that research is flawed for a number of reasons (sample size being one). I continued taking the vitamin A for another week or so after noticing this but stopped when I realized I had re-developed food allergies I had several years prior to this on my zero carb, carnivorous diet (which was also high in vitamin A, coincidentally).One week after this, all hell broke loose and I suspect this was because the body was no longer trying to store the incoming vitamin A and was instead trying to excrete the excess. I ended up in the ER 5 times that summer with severe tachycardia (woke up one morning with it running about 230 bpm and thought I was going to die).
The vitamin A overdose caused severe hyperthyroidism. I had zero TSH, high T3, high T4, and an ultrasound revealed severe inflammation and hot nodules on the thyroid gland. It also caused Crohn's-like symptoms in the GI tract. I passed blood with my stools and had severe diarrhea for weeks.
The memory loss was really bad but was suddenly potentiated one day when I took an iron supplement. That night I was basically in and out of consciousness, could literally feel the swelling in my skull, and the memory loss was so severe that I would go to the store, use the bathroom, or read something and couldn't remember doing it at all. I also had severe suicidal depression for several weeks after stopping the vitamin A.
Iron potentiates the damage from vitamin A because excess vitamin A will haphazardly donate electrons to anything in the environment, especially redox-active metals which initiates the cascade of production for reactive oxygen and nitrogen species which then kill cells.
I can still have light memory problems if I eat incorrectly, but they are mostly gone now. The thyroid issue, the heart issue, and the bowel issue have largely been reversed after 2 years eating zero vitamin A. It took at least a year before the memory problems really started to reverse. Vitamin A is excreted very slowly and it can take years to get rid of an excess. I also had trouble similarly to early-stage Alzheimer's. I couldn't remember common words like "ocean" or "pencil." I also couldn't remember the names of family members and people I had known for years. Very scary stuff for someone in their 30's.
I consider myself lucky. I'm sure I was pretty close to death at certain points that summer.
Fleas are easier to deal with than they appear. Requires plenty of water and clean quarters. Fleas love dust, hate water. Dogs who get into water daily do fine. About to give ours a bath while the better half vacuums whole house. Now that summer is over, diatomaceous earth added to this routine will kill them off until the next wild animal contaminates them again.
Will look into Alan Watts more. At least he does not game the rage as Icke and Jones do. Had associated him with the acid promoting crowd in MK ultra like Terrance McKenna. willhelp.me looks interesting.
Similar experience in my 30's. Blamed it on antibiotics. Horrific weight loss, jaundice, cramps,......... For sure antibiotics played a huge roll. vA played a massive part in the problem too. At my worst, I could not find the name of my bride of 8 years. Held off depression with ferocious anger over the scenario. Aka, abused adrenals to avoid being demoralized and giving up.
Was it Carol Burnett? We are either all together alone or we are all alone in this together. Figuring any time I feel unhappy and or isolated, someone running MK ultra games wants me to feel that way. Eff them. I am fine. No matter how good or bad it gets, I am fine. Gratitude makes that contentment a requirement. As simulated interactions become higher quality, that isolation is likely to increase while a probable majority will become less capable of grokking it. Sure would love to share steak, rice and a bottle of Fiji water with Solzhenitsyn and talk over tech/kleptocrats.
Edit 11/12/2025 - contentment - not content me